I write a lot more then I read. When it was suggested by a woman I read the book “Fifty Shades of Grey” I didn't think that much about it. Sure, I heard it was a big craze and all but, I don’t like to be like everyone else.
Most of the books I have read in the past were Jackie Collins. I like that kind of read. I always have. Fantasy world of the rich, glamorous, and sexy.
So, instead of buying my usually monthly magazine for my plane trip back to LA from NYC, I grabbed a copy of “Fifty Shades of Grey”. I started reading the book as soon as I got into my seat on the plane and did not stop till I was landing in LA.
It was an exciting and sexy book. It actually introduced me; of all people, into a world I have never been to. I always thought it was weak and boring for me to be a submissive woman in my personal life.
In my professional life as a 20 veteran of the adult entertainment industry I am dominate. I have taken care of myself for 20 years; fought all my own battles, although there were very few.
When the day was over and I was lying in my bed, I was submissive, I like a man to be a man. I like him to take over. Make the decisions and even tell me what to wear. If it turns him on it does even more for me. I am not talking abuse, just dominates. I did not fully understand the dominate role of the man until I started reading “Fifty Shades of Grey.”
This Grey character seemed to line up everything properly and to just about any woman’s liking. He was beautiful, successful, fit and ultra-rich. Isn't that what we as woman all secretly dream of in a man? Lavishing us with everything our heart desires. In this life you take the good with the bad, don’t you?
Putting myself in Miss Steel’s character, I was able to handle what he was offering. Again, I am submissive, the treatment he gave her was all right in my book. Just follow the rules. I am very good at following the rules.
It was a very well written book, with a great attention to detail. It took me right to the place the author was describing. Maybe that is why it took me so long to get through it. Every time they had a sexual encounter, which was a lot, I had to put the book down and recovered from it as if I had just been through it physically as well.
Well, this morning I finished it. It sort of left me dry. Which is strange since I was wet for most of the time I was reading the book? I understand it is a trilogy and to get the full story I will have to read the other two?
Mr. Grey put everything on paper and he lived up to everything he said he would. There were no surprises and his communication with Ana was very open and honest. This to me is a great agreement. No surprises, no lies, no bullshit. It is what it is, either like it or leave. Completely harassment free in my eyes.
Simple to me, yet I am submissive and that is what I want in a relationship. Open honest communication. I would have accepted the terms of the contract and made sure not to roll my eyes unless I was feeling very naughty!