Thank god! The full moon is passed and so is my PMS. Both of
these can be hell on their own for me but when put together, it’s a double disaster.
(I wrote a bit for my comedy act about it.)
I knew they were both coming, I chart that shit now, I
learned the hard way. I can’t hide myself from the world like a monk during
this time. So, I try to stay healthy and focused. Of course anything that
happens isn't that big of a deal anyway, I mean during any other time of my
life.
Long story short, of
course I was in situations that were hard to deal with the last 5 days or so. I
never doubted myself, and I am going to continue to do my life my way.
With all those feeling running inside me, this morning after
a double disaster weekend, the thought that maybe I would consider dating women
came to me. Anyone that knows me will
tell you I love men. Not interested in women sexually.
Maybe that’s just a cover up. I have never experimented with
women in my personal life. Maybe I have been trying to force myself to want men
so much to hide it. I am sure there are a lot of people out there that can shed
some light on this subject for me.
Dating women would not be just a sex thing for me. In fact
that would be that last thing I would want. I want to see what’s there on an emotional
level. Quite frankly sex is sex. I get excited from being with someone when
there is an emotional bond.
I think at this point in my life I better check and see if I
am batting for the right team. I always just assumed I was. Or told from childhood it was wrong. Yes,
that would be more like it.
Keep peeling back the onion, that beautiful light on the inside
is getting brighter.
